i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

"how long more must i continue to wait?"

this is just a simple statement that i keep asking myself. I know that there is no point in waiting for it yet i cant let go. its obvious that you cant be bothered anymore. its obvious that you dont want to have anything to do with me anymore yet im still acting the way that i am.

why cant i just leave and let go and treat you the way you treat me? why is that not possible? today is your bday.. you chose to ignore me as usual.. you go out partying n celebrating with ur frens. and when i called.. u just said " im busy, what do u want?" if i wanted to wish u happy bday, upon hearing that did it ever occur to u how hurt i would be in the end? NO! why? cuz im fucking insignificant to you. i dont even mean anything to you for u to be even bothered with my feelings

so many a times i wish to tell myself, just curse him and let him disappear from my world asap. FOr you to just get lost.. I know, no one can help me, i know no one can take what I have away from me except for myself. I know that unless I stand up and face you, I wont be able to walk away a happy person.

Thing is.. i had enough.. i had enough of all the waiting and the fucked up lies that you told me.. im tired of just being an idiot and letting you play around with me like im some toy then in the end throw me away like some used tissue paper..

I dont want this anymore.. I really want out.. and i really want to let you go.. i really want to just forget whatever i had with you.. i dont even want to rmb that you existed in this world.. i dont want to run away anymore.. i want to stand up and fight.. fight for what is right for me.. fight for wad i truly deserve..

as long as one day i dont get an ans, i will continue to haunt you down.. back to top?