i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

it has been what 1 week since i have last saw you.. these few days "what is the point" has been tiding me through this period. but its not working.. at least for this instant.. after your unexpected call, i tried to psycho myself what is the point. but i dont know why it just doesnt seem to work.

so when i told you, dont lead me on you stopped all contact. does that mean in the beginning you were leading me on too? i dont know.. i guess my departure really doesnt mean anything to you at all.. you tell me you miss me too.. do you? do u really miss me? what do you miss about me? why do you still miss me? there are so many answers i wish to find out from you but i know i will never get them answered.. like why? why did we even started this whole thing.. why did you let me continue? why did you keep lying to me telling me that you wanted me by your side. you knew that nothing would come out of it, so why did you give me so much hope?

everyday i just feel like going back in time.. to the time when we were in europe.. just pausing the time there if i could.. to all the happy times there.. to the times when i was oblivous to the lies, truth, reality. i wish i could go back.. i wish that right now you could be by my side now.. i really do..

would you still come back and read my posts? or just forget everything about me? I really wish to know.. I know yst's call was for wong, it could have never been cuz u missed me.. I also know that after yst there wont be any calls, msges, any form of contact from you. is that better?? i dont know. i really dont..

why cant you just come back.. back to top?