I know its a double entry again, but this post is for you.

To you:

If you asked me do I regret knowing you, I would not be able to give you any answer. Being the angry me I would say YES!! I hate you and I cant wait for you to get out of my life. But being the me which once loved you so much I would say no cuz no matter how tough this road was, it was my decision.

Exactly 3 months and 3 days have passed and during this 3 months it was like hell breaking loose. No one knew what was happening or what the outcome would be like. But during this past few weeks the whole world changed. You stopped caring for me, stopped loving me and stopped being the man that I once fell in love with. You've changed. I know you will say , " No I still love you and I still care for you." Then if that's the case, maybe you never fell in love with me to begin with.

Being with you was one of the hardest love I have ever tasted. The constant disappointments when you would back out on our dates, or the times when you couldnt even make time for me, or the times when all I needed was to hear your voice. You were never there for me. And me? All I could do was wait patiently for you to be by my side. Stupidity and a fool yet again. Being treated in that way and yet I'm still hanging on shows how much you mean to me. But so what? Its a single sided affair and that's all it will ever be.

I know that if I tell you," I'm leaving." you would just say, " orh ok lor. loving someone doesnt mean you gotta possess them. " This phrase only shows how shallow this love is. If you really love someone you will try to do your best to keep them by your side so that you can protect them from this harsh reality of this world. But being you, no matter who the other party is there is no way you can protect or care for them. Reason being that you are just too obsessed with yourself. You love yourself more than you love anyone in this world. To you, you are the most important thing. I cant judge because we have different mindsets.

Simply it just shows that there is no such fate that exist between us. And since that's the case there should be no other reason to keep you by my side anymore. From today onwards, you want to go Mongolia just go, you want to go prawning with a pink rod go ahead, whatever you want to do is up to you. It's your life that you have to lead. And I cant find any part of me inside your life. So I think we shall just bid our final farewell.

There will be no more post on you or how much im missing you or how much im crying over the fact that you're gone. Everything about you will just disappear with a click on the del button on this keyboard.

Goodbye,

From me..