i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

suddenly i dont know what to do with my life anymore. i always wanted to go overseas to study my degree. i know still have 2 more yrs to go and i should not be even thinking about it.. but i cant help myself. but after today.. i dont know what i should do anymore..my mum told me.. if i can get into singapore's university to study nursing it will be better cuz she will be able to pay cpf.. but the thing is... that is not what i want..i know i cant be selfish to drain my parents money just to fufill my dream..and the thing is i am not even sure if i want to be a nurse..that is y i dont want to attand singapore uni.. cuz after that degree.. u are a nurse.. nothing but a nurse.. its something i cant accept.. since its not what i wanted initially.. i do admit that i like the medical field.. but i dont wanna be in the ward 24/7.. its not the life i want..i just dont see any meanig in a life like this.. although there are so many things i wish i could have done to erase the past.. but no matter how much i learn and enjoy my experience at the hospital. i just cant seem to visualise myself as a nurse.. working my ass off for some shit pay. i wanna earn lots of money.. and this cant get me anywhere.. its mentally draining.. after what my mum said.. i start to think to myself.. what for i study so hard to get into an oversea's uni? y dont i just anyhow study than go and sign bond than go n study sim.. wun that be better?? i just donno what to feel and think any more.. suddenly my future seems bleak after what she said.. i hope someone can just tell me what i should do.. might as well just plan my life for me while u're at it..

2 yrs seems like ages.. but with blink of an eye.. its gonna be over.. back to top?