i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

came back from bangkok few days ago.. it was damn fun.. bought alot of t-shirts and stuff for my frens.. bangkok was great.. the shopping and the food n not to forget the massage.. it was fabulous.. haha.. and cheap too.. what else can i ask for.. haha. went to the YMCA.. the kids there are sooooo damn adorable.. just love them to bits n pieces man.. felt quite sad for them as 7 kids are infected with HIV.. i feel that in this case their parents are responsible. i mean its like u wanna have fun and all but when u are down with a kid u dont wanna care for him? what logic is that. it totally doesnt make any sense. seriously if u wanna have fun in bed make sure u have enough responsiblity to face the future and not just dump ur kids in an orphanage.. after that trip i realise that i really do have to treasure what i have infront of me.. looking at those kids, no parents to love them, just friends and foster parents to dote on them, its sad.. especially when we got on the bus and seeing them chase after the bus behind the gates really wanna bring tears to my eyes.. if i can or have the ability in the future i will do whatever i can to help these kids..

hai.. what is mature actually? my dad's opinion of mature is the ability to buy house, car, etc.. like when u reach 21 u are mature.. honestly i think thats total bull.. sometimes i think to myself.. am i matured?? i like someone who is younger, that aint matured right? but i donno, does love consist of maturity?? i guess a portion of it does.. recently i fell in love with my best friend.. i have known him for 6 years.. honestly, i am afraid.. i am afraid of losing him in the end although we both know that no matter what happens we will be there for one another.. i guess u can call me immature too.. cuz despite the fact that he rejected me i still went for it the 2nd time.. although the 2nd time he din reject me.. its confusing.. its somewhere in the middle.. its hard to be in the middle when there is no assurance or sign to tell me that im doing the right thing.. i dont even know if i should be hanging on.. its impossible.. although he has some feel for me, i think.. but its just that our height are worlds apart.. ok.. thats a stupid reason to be afraid but i mean like.. wun tall guys like tall gals?? and age is another matter.. im older than him.. okok.. im old-fashion i agree.. its quite taboo?? i donno.. its lk.. even my dad says im conning little kids.. he said until lk i cant do any better than finding a kid as my bf lk tt.. wtf sia.. seriously lor.. the last thing im afraid is that.. he hasnt realli tell me verbally that he likes me.. and also he is always so good with girls u noe.. of cuz i will be afraid.. duh right.. ya.. i donno.. maybe in this life friends is all we can ever be.. lets just leave it up to fate to tell me the outcome ba.. back to top?