i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

as u all can see from the title.. i am actually having trouble understanding that word 'excuses'.. yes its a type of phrase when u use when u are trying to deny something.. but to what extend can it be considered an excuse? blame and excuse are actually interlinked in my opinion.. usually when there is an excuse, blame will come in and take over.. i bet all of u have experience this before. what happened today is that my bro he lost some stuff. i felt both angry and disappointed in my bro.

angry because i felt he has no right to throw his temper around just because those are impt stuff.. if it is that impt than u shd have taken care of it. but did u. think abt it urself.. its like.. honestly speaking what have u done for this family that u can lift ur head proudly and say,'i did that.' i dont think anything. if u want to say about the moving house thing. how much have u actually done? how much have u move. u ownself tink abt how old ur dad is.. how much strenght does he have. i dont want to mention about me being a gal and how much strenght i have. because that wun matter to u.. u only know how to make fun about me about my strenght but have u ever thought about where that came from? it came from u being a failure as a man.. u say that ur gf is the one u love and want to protect. but think about it.. how can u protect her and ur future family when u cant even protect ur own family. the one that brought u up, gave u food n clothes n shelter, the ones that gave in to u when u throw a tantrum.. can u still proudly say that u have that ability to protect the one u love? i don tink so. i know i sound very harsh.. but u are my bro.. no matter how much i quarrel with u, no matter how much i say u are useless... i hope and wish that one day u can come right infront of my face n tell me, "i am not useless. i have changed."

i am disappointed in him because whenever i see how much we care for him and he doesnt know how to recieve and reciprocate that love. it really hurts. imagine in a year the amount of sentence u can talk with your mother is less than 100. dont u even feel a little bit of shame? don u noe how much u have hurt her? u are always tinking about urself. u have to learn that this freaking world don revolve only around u and ur frens. there is such a word called family. do u even noe wad a family means? i dont tink u noe. she had so much hope in u that u can go into a uni and when u dint, did she scold u? no she din. she found alternative routes for u. and did u cherish her effort? did u cherish what she did for u? no u din. u never ever did.. from the day u were born till now... all these 22 yrs.. u tink abt it.. have u ever cherish wad anyone in this family did for u.. because of u, do u know how much quarrels there were.. because of u, do u noe how much i suffered? no u don.. because u only know how to tink about urself.. just because she doesnt allow u to dye ur hair u wanna make a fuss and claim that we dont care? if u want it so much. i will go and work and gif u that money to dye ur hair.. but will u even understand and appreciate that effort? if u do.. i will do that for u just cuz u are my brother..

i really hope u will stop making excuses and start taking responsibility in ur own life.. stop saying that u wan to lead a carefree life.. because ur life is already carefree as it is.. u don have to work, everything is given to u.. pls.. take some responsibility.. i am realli asking that small favour from u.. back to top?