i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

din do much today.. was still pissed this morning over what an ass told me yst.. honestly, what right did he have to say things in the manner that he did.. as if i fooled around with him purposely.. honestly, it was one of the most horrible rs i have ever been in.. until now i ask myself what made me be with u for so freaking long.. i really dont know which nerve in my brain was fried to make me be with you for so freaking long.. i should have dumped you in the beginning when u lied to me about your past.. i should have also slapped you when you were msging your ex on the sly behind my back and flirting with those juniors when i quitted school.. so many times i could have just slapped you and leave but i donno y i stayed.. its the most stupid thing i have done in my whole entire life besides agreeing to be with you.. and all those bull you said.. like.. i trust u so i ask u.. omg.. seriously can someone teach him what the hell is trust.. the ppl in ur family have no freaking trust so is tt how u treat me? and when i said ok i will try to get along with ur family.. honestly i hated them u know.. the way the look down on my family.. the sacarsim that u din get.. the fakeness that greeted me when i met them.. the boastfulness of ur whole family urkes me.. its digusting.. n u.. are the most disgusting thing i have ever met..

ok enough of that shit.. what he said did make me think if that is how i appeared to others.. have you all been in a rs where u told urself that you never loved anyone this way before and when you are in the next you say the same thing? it does sound abit shitty i have to agree.. but i realised that you can love different people in different manner.. that is why now i can say i am not in the wrong to say, "i never love anyone like this before." yst when my ex said to me.. r u sure u are in love this time? i thought you said you are those flirty type.. i agree i said that before to him at that time when our rs was on the rocks.. i din know what make me phrase it that way but now i know.. im not flirty and the reason y i said that was because i wanted to hint to him that i wanted a breakup.. its not that im bored about him.. ok maybe a little.. but its the stress i get when we are together.. arent rs supposed to be happy and carefree? i understand that there is no perfect love in reality but im confident to say that love should not make a person feel stressed and pressured..

after that i thought to myself what exactly is love.. i know this is something alot people ask themselves until it has become such a boring topic.. but i dont understand.. how do you know if you are in love with someone or if you are in love with the feeling of being loved.. both are so different in so many ways but why do people usually mixed them up and say its the same? i have heard people who say, "i love you so you have to do this do that" that aint love.. thats bullshit.. love is a choice.. love is something you can choose yourself without any worries that you have done wrong.. its hard to know whether you are in love when love itself is something so hard to comprehend.. it twirls people's feelings as easy as making a cotton candy.. it always make people who are sure in the beginning unsure in the end.. love is really such a complicated matter.. back to top?