i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

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That seems to be the only thing on my mind now. No I'm not talking about tweeter. I'm talking about peace. Birds and peace only has a link unless the bird is a dove which I doubt the ones in my mind are. Why peace? Alot of things have been happening in my life, its just like being stuck in the ocean and there is nothing you can do to get back on shore. And the worst part has yet to come. Suddenly a whirlpool had to come along and wreck my tiny little boats to shreds. Yep, that's pretty much what's happening in my life. Despite the havoc I managed to take in a deep breath and calm down my thoughts.

Recently I had a chat with my friend the other day to find out that "hey, I really do have an identity crisis." Too many things have been happening these few years and I have changed alot, into someone I hardly recognise. These few days I have been picking up the wooden shreds from the boat wreck and tried to piece them together. To be brutally honest, its not easy at all. Trying to glue or tie back the pieces while the whole world mocking you behind your back. It sucks, but that the reality of life. It's something you cant run away from.

My love life this year is what I would like to describe as forbidden. Just like how Adam & Eve were not allowed to eat the apple in the sacred garden. Or how Romeo & Juilet's love were made out to be. In ancient China, if this were to happen, the people who were involved are to be thrown inside pig cages and dumped into the sea. Whereas, in the Western culture it was deemed as something unethical, unheard of or even unthinkable. However, times have changed. Situations have not and people's perception are still the same. It's interesting how times can change and how people can develop but how values stay. So back to my story of forbidden love.

Forbidden love like something a person might desire at a certain point in time, whether be it strong or weak. It possess something which captivates the curious mind and once you're in it. End of story. Nothing good ever comes out from something forbidden be it in the past or in the 21st century. As long as it doesnt belong to you, happiness will not follow. So all you are doing in this forbidden love is indulging in self pity, in curiosity, in delusions and in hopes that dont exist. All you are doing is creating a world, a fantasy to run away from the reality of life. Love should not be that way. Love should never be the reason you are running away from something because those kind of love are just temporary.

It's time to wake up from that fantasy world and get back on track. It doesnt matter how long you stray, it matters on how much are you willing to get back on track. back to top?