Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, June 13, 2010 @ 9:41 PM

arghh.. what is wrong with today.. i know i wanted my life to be happening but not in this manner right..

started out at 4am plus when uncle told me that dad is hospitalized cuz of mild stroke.. in the end just chest pain for investigation. went down to the ward that he was in and ok la.. nothing happened that time.. after that wanted to go to the cafe near AnE there to buy some food in the end its closed!!! how can it be close???? ridiculous.. isnt it suppose to be 7 day wk? haha.. i dont know cuz i never really work sunday in AnE before. then after that.. when home to freshen up b4 meeting my cousin to IT fair.

while going to the train i was suddenly stopped by this lady who called out to me.. i took out my earpiece and she said, " can give me money to eat? " yes i do feel sad that you dont have money to eat but then how come suddenly there are more these type of people on the streets and in mrt nowadays. the gov shd do smthing about it. do more for those in need. you cant even take care of your needy ppl how do you expect your country to excel? then on the way down the escalator.. these 2 uncle were blocking my way.. i said excuse me TWICE and none wanted to budge.. seriously.. be considerate can?? are you like deaf or you dont understand what is excuse me? lucky one of the uncle move abit for me to squeeze through.. the other one.. i swear i wanted to kick him down the escalator..

i know my mood is pretty bad.. yes.. cranky when i dont get enough slp and food..

after reach my cousin house.. my popo bath the mad dog who bite her.. it was a 4cm wound and abt 0.5cm deep.. the mad dog.. that's why i love my baby.. she's not tt mad.. did dressing for my popo before going to IT fair.. super alot of people and the laptop that i wanted to get was SOLD OUT? my luck.. seriously sucks today.. then i settled for another since the graphic card seems better and it was cheaper. after buying took cab back to cousin hse before resting and going home.

decided to take cab home.. wrong move.. the cabbie uncle started talking abt blue eye ppl and black eye ppl.. and abt god and adam and eve and make love and babies and how guys shd treasure girls cuz girls can be pregnant n guys cant. etc etc.. after reach home.. another bomb attack..

my dad said, " lets go TTSH, your ah ma admitted." i told him i dont want to go but noooooooo, im not given a choice because im a freaking female. he said. " your mother not here so you must go. " my mothere here or not.. its not like i got a choice right.. hate it man.. hate it.. seriously.. you are my dad and so? doesnt mean u can start bossing me around and expect me to respect u.. i'm sorry i dont.. i do wad im suppose to and dont expect more from me. then when we reach there.. u all know hosp got 4 ppl policy.. in the end he quarrelled with the ppl downstairs cuz upstairs gt 4 ppl already and he cant go up.. and he was pissed.. seriously la.. there is like what.. 6 ppl upstairs already.. just ask the kids to come down.. its not like they need to be up there right? he go up then do what? what make decisions.. pls la.. talk fucking crap ok.. maybe its cuz that's not my mother i dont feel his pain. but whatever.. none of my business.. his problem is none of my concern.

finally managed to vent of at least 20% of the fire in me.. whew.. hope tml will be a better day..