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would you choose the person
you love the most
or the one that loves you the most
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i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it.
`Life's like a rollercoaster :)
*pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages
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![]() So what is a boyfriend in your understanding? Someone who is with you, cares for you, loves you, spends time with you and one who does things with you willingly. Something along that line right? WRONG. A bf is someone who find an empty slot in their busy lifestyle and just slot you in just some freaking business deal. You dont have to glue to me 24/7 if you dont want to, I'm not forcing you. Just ignore me lor. isnt that what you do best? You have pass that age. I havent. I'm still in my youth stage. I still hunger and crave romance. Not like you. I still need that time where we will spend time together and create memories together. But you? You are at the stage where you say, " lets cut the romance crap, so you wanna get 2gether or not." Dating to you is just a plain chore right? I pick you up, we watch movies and eat. Ok, end of story. Goodnight. WTF is that? Am I childish? Ask any girl my age, can they tolerate their bf treating them like that? Work is more important, this is more impt, that is more impt, every fucking thing is more impt. then where do i stand? your feet? or your toes? definitely not your heart. Dont go on telling me you are impt, you dont understand, i love you blah blah blah all those sweet talk. if you intend to say something mean it. if you intend to make a promise, fulfill it. dont just go around playing with words that you arent going to hold on to or you are going to forget. these words may not change your life, but guess what. it changes mine. You think i like to do this every fucking day? to be emo and mop around. hello.. i want to have a life too. apparently right now im having trouble getting my life back together. but are you helping? NO. you say you care. ok. so where were you when i got rejected from NTU? hmm.. office.. where you again when i needed to apply for SIM? hmm.. office.. and where were you when i needed a shoulder? hmm.. office, universal studios, out having fun while related to work. so.. where were you again when i needed a bf who cares. i dont know. are you still here in this world? ok. i am childish to write all the msges.. but when were you matured? does putting your gf in the last place matured? or disregarding her feelings but saying you dont like her being emo or throwing tantrum or simply she is just too bloody naggy matured.. So if that is not matured what is? Hmm.. call when we have the time to talk, or meet when we both have free time slots? Sorry.. love is not something you just fit into your schedule. if that is love, then any freaking tom, dick or harry can be my bf. Love is something where you put in effort to meet the other person. To do things for other ppl. To do things to show that you care and love that person. Things which bonds both of you 2gether. Like eg. communication. How can we have a bloody rs when there is no freaking communication? when one tries to talk and the other says, " shut up, you are too naggy." or when one tries to ask the other says, " why? ahiya i call you back later and tell you k." or other fucking crap. If that is communication to you then i will just shut up and stop talking for the rest of my life. you tell me you dont like me talking to him. OK. then stop talking to her. dont go and tell me this is different. just shut up cuz its bloody fucking same. ok. if i were going to be with her it would have been 2 years ago. same goes for me. if i were to be with him it would have been what 5 years? or more ago. then? you say.. cant you tell he is treating you like a spare.. then i ask you. cant you tell that she is treating you like a fling. all the ai mei that is going around you 2. please... even the freaking blind man on the streets can tell. i'm not stupid alright. dont treat me like one. honestly i really thought this relationship could be different. i thought that this relationship could last. i thought that this relationship can allow me to start believing that love truely exists. But guess what. love doesnt exist. even no matter how much you hope for it or pray for it, it wont happen means it wont happen. even if you cry your heart out, if they dont care there is nothing you can do. even if you cut your heart out to show them how much you love them. it doesnt matter. love is superficial. love is fake. promises are meant to be broken. words are meant to decieve and hope.. is meant to be dashed. there is nothing happy about life. there is nothing to look forwards to anymore. the sunrise? big deal. its just another day.. another day of misery. so what is with "tml is another brand new day" total bullshit. back to top? |