Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 12:41 AM

The school which created my childhood.
Thinking back at the times, i really do miss it alot.

The P.E lessons, the chior, ochestra and band lessons. They are just memories that will stay with me throughout.

Had a chat with a friend today,
started to miss her real bad and the times we spent in the past.
We were reminiscing about the time I stayed over at her house and her mum cooked pig trotter for us.

The stayovers at Amanda's and the best mudcakes in the whole entire world which is made by her dear granny. But granny passed away a few years ago. And her cat, Velvet, which I hated so much. The quarrels I had with her because of kyle. It was really hillarious.

And the carwash, raking leaves and shovelling snow that we would do just to earn that extra allowance. The snowball fights with the whole entire neighbourhood involved. The hanging out after school at my house. Those were really the days.

Now when I look at all of them, everyone has changed. Everyone is moving forward. Amanda is doing archeology, Christine doing law, Rina working at school, Seil in the army, Kazuki in Japan's top University and the list continues. And the most shocking is to find that my dear friend Kachina has a baby boy. It suddenly occurred to me that I dont have that much time left. Everyone I know is finishing their degree and yet I haven even started. I feel so ashamed of myself seriously. And during graduation when this girl had straight distinction and passed out with a GPA of 4.0. I felt really horrible inside. I knew i could have done better but I didnt.

But its ok, I still have one more chance and this time round I want to excel. I want to do something which will make myself proud. Proud that I am able to achieve something in life. I mean that's life right? Moving forward.

Was at home today googling for a few private schools which offer psychology. And in the end i have decide to go with SIM's double major in psychology and communications under University of Buffalo. I wouldn't mind going to UB during my 3rd year. Isnt that the dream of the majority? To live in the big apple. I love to travel, I love psychology and I love mental health and definitely I love action. So right now I really dont know what I want. But I know in order to mould my future, I have to take the 1st step, which is get a degree.