Cold Nostalgia

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 @ 10:54 PM

Finally i gradated from poly. haha.. never regret going today. managed to take a few photos with my besties and some teachers..

Realised that i do miss nursing life and that this 3 years has passed so fast. all the kissing of manekins, the exams, the little notes before tests, the sleeping and skipping classes.. the luxury of enjoying time.. now when i enter the work force, i cant take as much mc as i like, cant skip work cuz i dont want to wake up. haha.. all those nonsense.. life is starting to change and i hope that i will be ready for what is to come..

another thing i have been thinking recently is trust.. why is it so hard to trust someone? you tell me that you dont trust i can take care of myself.. then if i cant take care of myself, how did i manage to survive all these years? just of one mistake and you condamn that i cant take care of myself. isnt that being a little too much?

As time pass, i realise that the past is reviving itself, unrolling itself infront of me again.. all the things that i were running from, all the things that i did not want to face are all coming back again. why? testing my patience or testing the love? i really dont understand why life has to be so complicated. cant everyone just be happy and enjoy life?

a friend told me today how much they wanted to be single again. haha.. then i started to think. being single sometimes have its benefits. no worries, no obligations, no headache, no saddness, no heart pain no nothing. but when you are single, there will be no one there to lend you a shoulder, to hug you close when you are down or cold, to love you with all they have.. that is why the saying exist, " the grass is always greener on the other side" How green is it no one truely knows because when they are there, they will think the new pasture opposite is greener.. this just shows how shallow life is and how uncontented people are with life..

but sometimes its hard to be contented dont you tink? when you just want something really bad and its there for u to enjoy but its not really yours. how contented can you force yourself to be? this is life, not matter what there is nothing genuine about it.. everything is fake, everything is a lie, everything is made up and everything is forced.