as days pass and with you running around my mind, i cant help but to miss you more and more with each day. being with you is like a human rollercoaster, being happy one minute and emoing the next. but this is life and i am enjoying each second of it. please dont be angry that i am always emoing cuz that is how i handle my emotions. dont say i am gulible cuz it makes me feel like i am the world most stupid person. haha. but at least i know i'm smart to have found someone who will always be there to protect me - you.

love, dont be jealous about other people cuz you know that no matter what happens you will be the person that i want to turn to. you will always be the person i want to share every detail of my life with if only you dont mind.

woke up in the afternoon today and went to the library to return the books to realise that my fines built up to $10.65. wanted to look for more books to borrow but the book there are really speechless.. nothing at all. so in the end walked home.. suddenly it started to rain but luckily was quite near my house so at least didnt become a drench chicken.. haha.. found my horrifying hp bill when i came home after that.. have to settle this also.. spent too much ever since i came back with my snb cert etc etc.. another thing which pissed me off is my cousin's hp bill.. i cant believe she have not paid the bill since january and its like april now.. she keeps telling me that she will pay and she will settle.. if by the end of the month and i really never recieve it i think i will just cancel her line and pay all the charges.. i cant be monitoring her bill every single month..

today is mama bday and her friend treated us to dinner.. we went to orchard plaza for dinner.. a sumo resturant.. the portion are really huge and its really nice.. especially the chicken and the hotpot.. its really nice.. and the tuna belly.. starts to drool again.. haha.. but its not very cheap but for 7 people i guess its alright.. after dividing i guess its not that bad..

i dont know.. i feel that my attitude towards my dad is getting worse with each day. i dont know.. its just i feel he is an eyesore u know.. he can just sit there and do nothing and i just cant stand it.. just now my bro say he wants to go to US in june.. how i wish i can go with him.. to the place where i miss soo much.. the place where i feel like home.. aniways he wants to go there to look for job.. but for me if given a chance i want to leave singapore.. i know its so contradicting cuz it was because of me that everyone came back and now i want to leave.. leave everything here.. i donno, i guess its a dream for me.. when i see the difference between western and asian culture i know for sure that i dont want my kids to grow up in a stressful country.. maybe im just thinking too much for now..

Our problems are man-made, therefore they may be solved by man.

No problem of human destiny is beyond human beings.

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