i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

sometimes by asking may not mean you care.. and sometimes by caring doesnt mean you ask.. guess im stuck here yet again thinking about what i should be blogging about now.. what you said about the age gap is true.. there is a gap.. but what francis told me may be quite true now.. age does not matter.. maybe that is true.. but all i noe is that this gap between us is getting wider and wider..

maybe you tink or maybe you really understand me but all i can say is that everything is taking place now.. the numbing process.. the slowing down of everything.. the aching of my heart.. the tearing of my brain.. its all coming in place.. soon.. i mean real soon i might actually have a breakdown..

you know what.. its not the age that matters.. its just.. we are in 2 different worlds.. worlds that will never collide.. like pluto and mars.. they will never collide.. like us.. this wont last.. there is too much that i dont know how to handle.. there is too much of you that i dont know what or how to react to.. everything suddenly just became super complicated..

you tell me that i mean alot to you.. that you really do care.. and that you love me... but know what.. the painful thing is i really cant feel it.. maybe you really do mean it and its just my numbness is taking process.. but i wanna get off.. i need to get off now before my world world comes crashing down upon me.. one experience is enough for me.. i really dont need a 2nd teaching..

i guess im wierd.. fang yann was a simple guy.. with him everything was simple.. little things would make me happy.. just the sight of him popping up on my doorstep.. but when i was with him.. i didnt want this simplicity.. i wanted something out of the ordinary.. now when i actually have something out of the ordinary with you.. i dont know how to handle.. and just wanna be simple..

i guess love is just not my cup of tea.. and its really too hard for me to comprehend stuff and that i really am just tired.. tired of everything..

anyways.. i have reached a decision.. one which i think i will not regret.. back to top?