Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, August 24, 2008 @ 4:40 PM

time..

sometime time passes so quickly that we dont even notice it.. had my bday celebrated wit my fam and huizi.. it was fun.. we all had too much to drink.. but the feeling was nice.. guess it was the time when i could really put down my feelings for the moment.. went out with sheri and yw yst.. it was fun.. the jap food was realli nice but it was realli ex as well.. and the sweet potato and hotballs dont taste nice in my opinion.. hahaha

tml is the start of my attachments.. will be going to sgh again.. hmm.. donno how this attachment will be.. hope i get all my core skills signed or else im going realli be in deep shit.. haha.. hope i can learn alot of things in this attachment and finally be giving the chance to give medications.. i wasnt able to give because of some things that happened in the last attachment.. haha..

hmm.. suddenly im feeling emptiness.. its a realli scary feeling that i hate to experience.. sometimes i realli dont know what for am i putting in so much for.. for the sake of getting not noticed or for the sake of saddness?? i dont expect you to give back that 100% that i have put in cuz i know that is not possible.. but just know that i exist and that i am giving all i got.. its no use if you just say u know.. cuz u dont know unless its from ur heart.. not ur mouth.. im feeling so tired of trying to make my existence known to you.. trying so hard for u to understand that i will be there for u no matter what happens.. but the more im trying.. the more you are pushing me away.. is this a sign for me to stop?? i donno animore.. but i guess it wun matter as well.. oh well..

happi hols for those in the 2nd attachment.. and work hard for those in the 1st..

ps.. i love all my frens alot.. and thanks for supporting me in no matter what i do.. love u guys.. u know who u are.. *hugss*