i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

I cant believe I screw this up again. What is wrong with me? I simply dont understand, how can I not trust someone who was so nice to me. Am I just stupid or what? I dont get it.

He told me he just wants to be friends, that he could not find the feelings that he had for me. Feeling that he could trust me and be with me. I dont understand what I did wrong. I dont. Thinking about it just makes me want to cry now. I wish bao bei was here. She would know what to do. I know she is just a dog but she never left me and now all I want is her.

I dont understand why Ray suddenly became like that, maybe I was not attractive enough or like I dont know. All i know is that i want him back. I dont want to lose him. so i'm going to wait. I know it's foolish and he may never like me back again but I believe if we are meant to be then something will happen. I believe that if I what I feel for him is real then one day he will know that he can trust me and that I'll be there for him. so now im going to take relationship off my mind and just be there for him. thats all. nothing else. even as a friend, i want to be there for him etc. i know it will be hard since i have so much feelings for him still, but i will try my best. cuz i know he is worth it. i just know it. i dont know why. but i do. and i know that if i try hard enough mircles do happen. they do. back to top?