i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

thinking back that the time when you cared, at the times when everything seemed so real.. it does bother me abit i guess.. cuz right now i have problem differienatiting what is real and what is fake.

does wanting a status necessarily means bad? does that make me greedy? selfish? am i selfish by wanting him to be only mine.. by not sharing him with anyone out there.. or does it show that i love him too much for him to leave? still ends with selfishness.. humans are selfish by nature.. right?

times when i feel like leaving.. feel like just letting go.. i cant.. feel like just being the old me.. the one who doesnt have the whole world staring at her.. just want to go back to the period in time when i was just invisible.. but that's impossible.. the world is moving and i just gotta learn how to keep up with it..

thinking about how much she matters to you still aches my heart a little.. sometimes it just feels like putting iodine on an open wound.. sometimes a slap on the face.. but most of the time it feels like a lifeless soul within me.. makes me feel that i have lost my conscience, my rights to be a good person.. makes me feel so horrible inside.. a wrecker, a destroyer or whatever you wanna call it..

so why am i still continuing this destroyer's path? materialistic gains? the feeling of showing off? the freshness of a new relationship? or simply just love? is that possible to continue because of the word love? when love is the one thing that doesnt last in this world.. one thing that is so dangerous to hold on to.. is it still possible? back to top?