Cold Nostalgia

i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 11:07 PM

hmm.. what did i do today?? i went to exchange money for my bangkok trip, like finally.. hahaha.. so excited to go to Bangkok and im praying real hard my fren doesn ditch me at the last minute.. bought some stuff for the trip as well.. really enjoyed the time wit myself today.. actually being alone isnt as scary as i thought it would be.. its sorta calming in fact.. after that went to granny's hse.. loveeee her to bits n pieces.. hahaha.. finally after sooooooo many mths of eating outside food i finally get to eat some home cooked food.. one word to sum it up.. DELICIOUS.. hahaha.. another thing i realised.. generation do change.. i rmb the time when i use to play the card game "donkey".. it was a picture of this donkey's face and now instead of that being it donkey, that became 'the ice-cream man' like ..... ok... then instead of having one donkey.. they have 2.. whats the point of having 2 donkey's in the game.. hahaha.. how i miss my childhood days.. if only im able to rmb most of it..

hmm.. why do i have this wierd feeling inside of me.. a feeling that i cant explain.. was talking to a friend today during work and i realised how much i need to know about myself and what i need in life.. when i heard that she n her bf had plans to go overseas for good in a few yrs time made me realise wasnt that my goal as well?? then why am i changing my goals just to be with someone who im not sure if he's the one... shdnt i find one who works together wit me to reach that same goal? hmm.. well lets leave it to fate.. haha..

Sunday, February 21, 2010 @ 10:33 PM

today's post is just going to be thoughts that just come out of my brain.. i really need to straighten out my thoughts and what exactly i want. aniways applied for sgh already and im still waiting for their call for an interview.. also a/w ntu's reply.. a/w this a/w that.. when can i stop waiting for smthing.. i just dont like the feeling of waiting, the feeling of uncertainty and what you can or cannot do while waiting.. its just irritating..

yst had an argument wit someone.. i was really affected i guess.. i really cant take it animore.. its just im really tired.. im really tired of relationships.. really tired of feelings.. really tired of having to give n take and really tired of just being in a rs.. its just too mentally draining.. the rollercoaster ride its just unbearable..

feelings feelings feelings.. cant i just stop tinking and stop everything that is going inside my brain and heart? i hate this feeling.. what exactly is this?? is this happening cuz i have no one in my life and he happens to be there? or is this real feelings.. or just a plain crush.. i really dont know.. i dont wanna know.. i feel like just running away from my emotions.. my emotions are really going to be the one that kills me in the end..

age.. is age really important? i dont know.. is what im saying all just plain excuses of not wanting to be 2gether or what am i doing? someone told me "whether the shoes are too big or too small you gotta try it yourself, just be sure not to injuried your foot." does that mean i really gotta try on this shoes to see if im his cinderella?? i really dont want to start smthing which is not going to have an ending.. will it have an ending?? i dont know.. maybe im too obsessed with how people may see me.. what ppl will say behind me.. what ppl tink of me.. maybe being wit someone older can really give me that sense of security that i really need.. maybe not.. it not exactly the easiest decision to make.. and what if i start work or go to uni and i find someone else who is more suitable.. then im being unfair to him cuz it will look like im just using him to tide over the mths.. i donno.. im not sure of whats right n whats wrong animore.. i jsut wanna stop tinking about everything..

just someone pause my brain at this moment.. i cant take this animore.. someone pls save me..

Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 12:14 AM

today OT wasnt as boring.. cuz i saw a caesarian case today.. the baby is sooo cute.. n it was a really cool opt.. hahaha.. if everyday OT was so interesting i wldnt fall alsp.. hahaha.. well.. nthing much to blog.. im sick but hope it gets better over the wkends.. i dont wanna replace OT.. arghhh...

Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 5:34 PM

Lost in translation

Lost

Have you ever had that moment when you dont know where to go or what to do? That feeling when you are so afraid of making that one decision. Well, that's what I'm feeling now, right this moment. It's so scary when the past would come knocking on your door, reminding you that all you past deicisions were wrong. There is no one to ask and no one can make that decision for you. They can only give their piece of mind but ultimately the decision lies with you.

Suddenly I was thrown into a situation where i had to make a choice, a choice that determined 2 people's happiness. I chose to let go. Some may think its the wrong decision but this is one story that will not end with, " happily ever after." I mean this decision is not only based my one vote, but i chose to stick with it. I dont see the point in being happy and

creating memories when one day it is these memories that brings you down.

I really dont know where to turn to and where I'm suppose to go. Where are you my orion's belt?

Tuesday, February 16, 2010 @ 11:23 PM

A ray of hope

A ray of hope

A few days something happened during attachments which made me realise that hope is something which is easy to catch but hard to put forth to. So what exactly is hope? To me hope is when you believe that something good will happen if you wish hard enough.

Everyone has hopes but sometimes they just get dashed due to maybe some negative stuff or that its just impossible. Okay, back to my topic during attachments. There was once i had hope that i could save this man, but it was dashed. Not because we gave up but because there was really nothing that could be done to save this poor man's life. it really made me realise that hope isnt always there when you need. But nontheless it is hope that keeps us going on everyday.

Have anyone heard of the story of pandora's box? Aparrently the story goes like this....

Epimetheus was given the responsibilty of giving positive traits to all animals but when man came along, he had nothing left. So his brother Promethus decided to steal the fire from Zeus. Upon knowing this Zeus was engraged and decided to punish all mankind thus he created Pandora. Along with other gods, Zeus gave Pandora traits like beauty, charm, boldness, curiosity, etc. Thus the name Pandora "all gifts" was given to her. Apart from that, pandora was given a box which she was told never to open. However her curiosity got the best of her and she opened the box. All misfortune was then released into the world, however, pandora quickly tried to close the box which only left hope. The world became bleak at an instant but soon pandora had the chance to open up the box again to release hope. Moral of this story is that no matter how bleak the world has become, hope will still be there to sooth the pain and misery. So no matter what happens, never give up hope..

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 11:07 PM hmm.. what did i do today?? i went to exchange money for my bangkok trip, like finally.. hahaha.. so excited to go to Bangkok and im praying real hard my fren doesn ditch me at the last minute.. bought some stuff for the trip as well.. really enjoyed the time wit myself today.. actually being alone isnt as scary as i thought it would be.. its sorta calming in fact.. after that went to granny's hse.. loveeee her to bits n pieces.. hahaha.. finally after sooooooo many mths of eating outside food i finally get to eat some home cooked food.. one word to sum it up.. DELICIOUS.. hahaha.. another thing i realised.. generation do change.. i rmb the time when i use to play the card game "donkey".. it was a picture of this donkey's face and now instead of that being it donkey, that became 'the ice-cream man' like ..... ok... then instead of having one donkey.. they have 2.. whats the point of having 2 donkey's in the game.. hahaha.. how i miss my childhood days.. if only im able to rmb most of it.. hmm.. why do i have this wierd feeling inside of me.. a feeling that i cant explain.. was talking to a friend today during work and i realised how much i need to know about myself and what i need in life.. when i heard that she n her bf had plans to go overseas for good in a few yrs time made me realise wasnt that my goal as well?? then why am i changing my goals just to be with someone who im not sure if he's the one... shdnt i find one who works together wit me to reach that same goal? hmm.. well lets leave it to fate.. haha.. back to top?
Sunday, February 21, 2010 @ 10:33 PM today's post is just going to be thoughts that just come out of my brain.. i really need to straighten out my thoughts and what exactly i want. aniways applied for sgh already and im still waiting for their call for an interview.. also a/w ntu's reply.. a/w this a/w that.. when can i stop waiting for smthing.. i just dont like the feeling of waiting, the feeling of uncertainty and what you can or cannot do while waiting.. its just irritating.. yst had an argument wit someone.. i was really affected i guess.. i really cant take it animore.. its just im really tired.. im really tired of relationships.. really tired of feelings.. really tired of having to give n take and really tired of just being in a rs.. its just too mentally draining.. the rollercoaster ride its just unbearable.. feelings feelings feelings.. cant i just stop tinking and stop everything that is going inside my brain and heart? i hate this feeling.. what exactly is this?? is this happening cuz i have no one in my life and he happens to be there? or is this real feelings.. or just a plain crush.. i really dont know.. i dont wanna know.. i feel like just running away from my emotions.. my emotions are really going to be the one that kills me in the end.. age.. is age really important? i dont know.. is what im saying all just plain excuses of not wanting to be 2gether or what am i doing? someone told me "whether the shoes are too big or too small you gotta try it yourself, just be sure not to injuried your foot." does that mean i really gotta try on this shoes to see if im his cinderella?? i really dont want to start smthing which is not going to have an ending.. will it have an ending?? i dont know.. maybe im too obsessed with how people may see me.. what ppl will say behind me.. what ppl tink of me.. maybe being wit someone older can really give me that sense of security that i really need.. maybe not.. it not exactly the easiest decision to make.. and what if i start work or go to uni and i find someone else who is more suitable.. then im being unfair to him cuz it will look like im just using him to tide over the mths.. i donno.. im not sure of whats right n whats wrong animore.. i jsut wanna stop tinking about everything.. just someone pause my brain at this moment.. i cant take this animore.. someone pls save me.. back to top?
Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 12:14 AM today OT wasnt as boring.. cuz i saw a caesarian case today.. the baby is sooo cute.. n it was a really cool opt.. hahaha.. if everyday OT was so interesting i wldnt fall alsp.. hahaha.. well.. nthing much to blog.. im sick but hope it gets better over the wkends.. i dont wanna replace OT.. arghhh... back to top?
Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 5:34 PM Lost in translation Lost Have you ever had that moment when you dont know where to go or what to do? That feeling when you are so afraid of making that one decision. Well, that's what I'm feeling now, right this moment. It's so scary when the past would come knocking on your door, reminding you that all you past deicisions were wrong. There is no one to ask and no one can make that decision for you. They can only give their piece of mind but ultimately the decision lies with you. Suddenly I was thrown into a situation where i had to make a choice, a choice that determined 2 people's happiness. I chose to let go. Some may think its the wrong decision but this is one story that will not end with, " happily ever after." I mean this decision is not only based my one vote, but i chose to stick with it. I dont see the point in being happy and creating memories when one day it is these memories that brings you down. I really dont know where to turn to and where I'm suppose to go. Where are you my orion's belt? back to top?
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 @ 11:23 PM A ray of hope A ray of hope A few days something happened during attachments which made me realise that hope is something which is easy to catch but hard to put forth to. So what exactly is hope? To me hope is when you believe that something good will happen if you wish hard enough. Everyone has hopes but sometimes they just get dashed due to maybe some negative stuff or that its just impossible. Okay, back to my topic during attachments. There was once i had hope that i could save this man, but it was dashed. Not because we gave up but because there was really nothing that could be done to save this poor man's life. it really made me realise that hope isnt always there when you need. But nontheless it is hope that keeps us going on everyday. Have anyone heard of the story of pandora's box? Aparrently the story goes like this.... Epimetheus was given the responsibilty of giving positive traits to all animals but when man came along, he had nothing left. So his brother Promethus decided to steal the fire from Zeus. Upon knowing this Zeus was engraged and decided to punish all mankind thus he created Pandora. Along with other gods, Zeus gave Pandora traits like beauty, charm, boldness, curiosity, etc. Thus the name Pandora "all gifts" was given to her. Apart from that, pandora was given a box which she was told never to open. However her curiosity got the best of her and she opened the box. All misfortune was then released into the world, however, pandora quickly tried to close the box which only left hope. The world became bleak at an instant but soon pandora had the chance to open up the box again to release hope. Moral of this story is that no matter how bleak the world has become, hope will still be there to sooth the pain and misery. So no matter what happens, never give up hope.. back to top?