i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

haven been blogging much lately.. was super duper busy with projects and tests and everything else..

1stly wanna say thanks for all of you who cared so much about me.. but don worry.. i wun break down cuz of little stuff.. if not im not me already rite.. wahahha.. yep.. so don worry.. love u guys lots lots..

went out tt day wit hz n her fren cc.. then bumped into choco pie.. haha.. choco pie being "nice" accompanied me to find my cny shirt.. haha.. in the end we walked sooooooo many places before i settled for a shirt dress at outfitters.. loves outfitters stuff too.. rmb wy bought a shirt for me there.. quite nice the stuff there.. then suddenly still have the urge to go shopping.. haha.. but going to be broke.. no money.. so too bad.. haha

lets start wit cny.. cny wasnt realli wow this year.. i donno y either but it was cool cuz my dad's fren gave a big ang bao.. haha.. then huizi came over to eat on cny eve at popo house.. it was real fun wit my cousins and all.. it was really fun.. then they started to play mahjong which is totally not my game.. haha.. i gt good tiles but donno how to win so too bad.. haha.. then the next day went popo house then ah ma house.. won about 6 bucks at 21 at ah ma house with cousins.. this year probably sucks.. ahaha.. cuz its lk.. my dad told me to find a good bf.. and my aunts ask where is my bf and stuff.. its like.. omg.. i dont have one.. so stop asking.. seriously getting on my nerves.. if i have a good one.. of cuz i will bring him to cny rite.. wahahha.. asking the obvious..

aniways.. that's that.. now to school.. been zoning out in school for the past few days/weeks? i donno why either but i have to realli snap out of it.. exams coming and i havent prepared for it.. and i got attachments coming.. going to be posted to kk and imh.. i am sooooooooo waiting for that imh posting.. i really cant wait.. then after tt going to india for yep.. hahaha.. cant wait for that too.. except the teachers suxs la.. but its ok.. i got my buds wit me.. ying n azlinda.. hwahah.. share room ok.. hahaha..

went out tt day to watch bride wars with choco pie.. the show overall was quite nice and gt one part so sweet.. the fortune cookie part.. and i forgot which part when the whole audience went awwww.. then the gong kia beside me ask me.. wad was tt sound.. of cuz its the sound when ppl feel smthing sweet la.. sooo gong sia.. after the movie went esplanade there to walk around n tok.. i seriously cant stand u u noe u pie.. hahaha.. damn lame n funni n irritaing.. hahaha.. but ok la.. had fun tt day.. thx leh.. still owe u one jeans date rite.. wahahha.. don worry.. u wanan buy tt time tell me...

aniways may not be blogging much these few days.. back to top?

傻瓜 Sha Gua Fool


其实他做的坏事我们都懂
qi shi ta zuo de huai shi wo men dou dong
We all know what bad things he has done

没有什么不同
mei you shen me bu tong
Not much difference

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
yan guang shan shuo ai mei liu dong
Roaming eyes and ambiguous relationships

闭上眼当作听说
bi shang yan dang zuo ting shuo
I close my eyes and pretend they're just hearsay

其实别人的招数我们都懂
qi shi bie ren de zhao shu wo men dou dong
We know too well the tricks of others

没有什么不同
mei you shen me bu tong
Not much difference

故作软弱 撒娇害羞
gu zuo ruan ruo sa jiao hai xiu
Pretend to be weak and shy

只是有一点别扭
zhi shi you yi dian bie niu
It's only a little unnatural

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
sha gua ye xu dan chun de dong
Fools are perhaps innocent

爱得没那么做作
ai de mei na me zuo zuo
Their love is not so pretentious

爱上了我不保留
ai shang le wo bu bao liu
When I have fallen in love, I won't hold back

傻瓜 我们都一样
sha gua wo men dou yi yang
Fools we are, all the same

被爱情伤了又伤
bei ai qing shang le you shang
Hurt by love time after time

相信这个他不一样
xiang xin zhe ge ta bu yi yang
Believing that this one will be different

却又再一次受伤
que you zai yi ci shou shang
And yet we get hurt once again

傻瓜 我们都一样
sha gua wo men dou yi yang
Fools we are, all the same

受了伤却不投降
shou le shang que bu tou xiang
Hurt by love and yet never gave up

相信付出会有代价
xiang xin fu chu hui you dai jia
Believing there will be a reward for our giving

代价只是一句傻瓜
dai jia zhi shi yi ju sha gua
And all it is, to be called a Fool back to top?

today was on the train when i saw a group of gals, only did it occur to me how much i have aged. i realised alot of things lately, and one of it being that i cannot stay in my own fantasy world. everyone wishes to be in their own fantasy hoping that they will never have to grow up and have things the way they want it to be, however that is highly impossible. back to the group of gals, i realise that no matter how young i tried to be its not possible, cuz im growing. im growing out of my shell, the needs that i needed and wanted once are no longer the needs that i need anymore. i always felt i needed someone fun like him, but its hard when the fun that you need is way beyond your reach. its like you always thought that the one you wanted was right there with you but suddenly you realise that they arent. that feeling sucks.

all i thought i wanted was someone fun to be with, someone who i can joke around with and be silly with. yea i need that. but after today, after seeing that group of girls, it suddenly made me realise that i aint one of them. meaning that i have grown up, i need someone to be there for me, supporting me. not just someone who i can be fun with. alot of stuff have occurred to me recently which made me think alot. ( some of you might know it ). sometimes i really wonder why love cannot be as easy as 123. why cant love be something so easy to understand. i feel that if a love is easier to understand the easier it is to treasure it. and it really hard sometimes when people have preconcieved ideas of who you are.

i mean seriously. is it wrong to be in love? is it wrong to fall in love with someone so easily and get into a relationship so easily? and when i manage to leave, does that imply that i dont like him enough or that he meant nothing to me? sometimes it really hurts when people say such ignorant stuff. i mean literally how can you be with someone you have no feelings for and dont you think it take a hell lot of courage for you to leave a relationship that you thought could last. seriously people, i dont get why in the puny brain of yours, you feel that by having sooo many relationship means that you are a big damn flirt. just think about it, there is no right or wrong in love, and the number of relationship you have does not make who you are and no one in the right mind have the right to condemn or even make the slightest remark on who you are base on the no. of relationships you had. cuz that is just plain ridiculous.

lastly the thing that happened to me made me realise that i have had that experience before, when i had to choose what i wanted. in the end i made a wrong choice that until now i regret. i hate that feeling and i do wanna apologise to you that i made you suffer emotionally for that period of time. only do i understand now how it feels. its really horrible to feel that its yours but not yours. back to top?

now at yiwei house sleeping over.. today went ou tto buy cny clothes at bugis.. cuz some normal stuff.. bought a small bag quite nice in my opinion.. haha.. went to eat some not nice jap food wit yiwei and sheri.. miss them alot..

really tired.. tired of everything that is happening.. tired of all the things im feeling.. tired of being strong and holding on to nothing.. im just tired.. i just need a nap.. and probably when someone wakes me up.. the life that i have will change..

thanks friends for all the things you all told me.. for all the support you have gave me.. love u guys a whole damn lot.. back to top?

this just gg to be a short post.. today watch ip man with ying n twins.. omg.. the show is like sooooooooooooooo nice.. totally fell in love wit the character.. esp donnie yan.. the part when i fell in love was when he say tt he is not afraid of his wife.. its just he respect his wife.. like soo omg.. so swt.. smtimes its easy to say but hard to do.. haha.. just lookin at him is like.. he gt soooo much sense of security.. so manly.. n its like sooo hard to find a donnie yan in this era now.. wish could have been born in tt era.. wahaha.. got johnny depp.. donnie yan.. all those oldies.. so man.. haha.. and tt jap guy hiroyuki ikeuchi.. he like soo cool too.. i found him to be like super familiar.. no wonder la..he was in bambino and gto.. haha.

its funny sometimes how people can feel so much emotions when they are unsure of what they are actually doing.. the thing im feeling now is hard to describe.. a little bit of everything i guess.. sourness.. emptiness.. that heavy feeling that i hate so much is just there.. i really wish for it to just go away.. hate days like this when my heart feels so heavy. yes it does sound illogical but feelings are always illogical. sometimes i think how come i feel this emotion? what does it mean? maybe its just that i am afraid of feeling this certain emotion. its scary. its smthing that can bond or break a person. jealousy. why am i feeling this way. its feels stupid.. its really confusing.. i just don like to feel this way.. cuz it just simply makes me feel inferior.. and i hate tt feeling or rather afraid of feeling inferior.. it just simply suxs.. im tired.. tired of thinking when the day will come crashing on me...... back to top?

going home soon in a few more days.. super happy.. miss sooo many ppl.. haha.. didnt do much for xmas or countdown.. stayed home.. but on 31st mama and me went to eat pizza hut for dinner.. it suxs.. suxs.. suxs.. really horrible.. terrible.. its like we ordered clam chowder soup but in the end it came out as mushroom soup.. the pizza was alrite.. then the criss cross fries.. it was like onli wad.. 5 or 6 pieces.. after tt i went home wit mama to watch the countdown on tv.. this yr countdown was so wierd.. besides my mama who countdown wit my physically.. 3 more frens countdown wit me virtually.. haha.. yiwei, ming jun n fang yann.. haha.. so funni n wierd combo.. but still cool la..

on the 1st i went to hk.. wit my mama. cuz i had to chop my passport.. we went to shang sui to eat this cow stomach noodle.. its realli realli nice.. and its so cool tt they still have those glass coke bottle.. after tt we walked around then had dessert which wasnt as nice.. then its back to shenzhen.. we met my aunt n uncle for dinner at the teochew porriage with shifu.. after dinner went to meet feng qun.. went to this cafe/resturant and drank ice lemon tea.. we talked for like 1 hour plus or 2 hrs.. then he went home n i went for my massage wit my mama.. massage was heaven.. i wish i can go everyday man.. hahaha.. shiok..

on 2nd i went to hk again.. this time to my mama company to help tick stocks.. after tt we met my aunt n uncle at yau ma tei to go to temple st. damn lots of food there.. n it rocks.. had oyster omelette.. porriage.. pig intestine.. curry fishballs.. super nice.. went to walk the small streets.. alot of the stalls were actually selling sex toys.. n it was soo funni when a menopaused lady wanted to buy.. it was realli funni..

today.. din do much today.. met uncle for dinner wit mama.. had beeef.. omg.. just loovveee the way beef taste.. just soo omg delicious.. after tt met fq again.. we walk around and finally found the dessert shop tt i loveeee.. had my papaya thingy again.. then after tt we talked for awhile.. after tt.. we both went home.. n it was nice of him to send me home n gif me present.. must thx him x time when i see him.. haha..

ps.. the photos will be put up once im in sg.. so pls wait for the photos.. hahaa.. back to top?