i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

sometime time passes so quickly that we dont even notice it.. had my bday celebrated wit my fam and huizi.. it was fun.. we all had too much to drink.. but the feeling was nice.. guess it was the time when i could really put down my feelings for the moment.. went out with sheri and yw yst.. it was fun.. the jap food was realli nice but it was realli ex as well.. and the sweet potato and hotballs dont taste nice in my opinion.. hahaha

tml is the start of my attachments.. will be going to sgh again.. hmm.. donno how this attachment will be.. hope i get all my core skills signed or else im going realli be in deep shit.. haha.. hope i can learn alot of things in this attachment and finally be giving the chance to give medications.. i wasnt able to give because of some things that happened in the last attachment.. haha..

hmm.. suddenly im feeling emptiness.. its a realli scary feeling that i hate to experience.. sometimes i realli dont know what for am i putting in so much for.. for the sake of getting not noticed or for the sake of saddness?? i dont expect you to give back that 100% that i have put in cuz i know that is not possible.. but just know that i exist and that i am giving all i got.. its no use if you just say u know.. cuz u dont know unless its from ur heart.. not ur mouth.. im feeling so tired of trying to make my existence known to you.. trying so hard for u to understand that i will be there for u no matter what happens.. but the more im trying.. the more you are pushing me away.. is this a sign for me to stop?? i donno animore.. but i guess it wun matter as well.. oh well..

happi hols for those in the 2nd attachment.. and work hard for those in the 1st..

ps.. i love all my frens alot.. and thanks for supporting me in no matter what i do.. love u guys.. u know who u are.. *hugss* back to top?

so long never blog le.. also lazy to do so.. exams is coming and i haven realli studied much.. i donno.. after exams, attachments will be here.. after attachments will be going to japan with huizi then will be off to china to visit my mum..

i also donno y these few days im getting soo pissed with my family.. i donno.. im getting more n more tired of living this type of live u noe.. the type where everyone just pretends to care.. its tiring when u have to live in a house where u have to learn wad and wad not to say.. and no matter wad happens it is indirectly ur fault.. its too tiring.. i seriously just wannan leave this house and just go to somewhere else to start anew..

another thing i started to feel is.. wad for am i studying so hard.. initially i wanted to study hard so that i can get grants and stuff like tt so that when i go other country to study, it wun be too financially hard on my parents.. but i guess this just shows that im being KPO.. well thats wad my dad says.. im being too stubborn cuz i wanna survive on my own.. i am being KPO cuz i wanna care about my family.. wadever i wanna do or care for my family is just a nuisance.. wadever i do is duo shi.. u noe.. like my bro ex gf like tt.. she steal my things and i complain.. im just causing trouble.. tts wad they say.. so i guess its alright for other ppl to steal my things.. cuz it gives my parents time to see wad type of person is she.. yea wadever lor..

all i wanted was to lessen ur burden.. is tt too much to ask for?? aniways i dont care le.. wadever it is.. its not my prob le.. u ask me to create less trouble and not be too stubborn n stuff.. i dont talk lor.. i dont do aniting lor.. then when i dont do aniting.. u say im being angry and u all start to be angry at my attitude.. u ask me dont care about this family de wad.. then when i stop caring.. wad r u all angry about... if u guys dont even noe wad u all want me to do.. then stop and think first lor.. then write down on a piece of paper wad i should or should not do.. like tt my life will be easier u noe..

this is just a fucked up world with fucked up ppl.. i dont even care who u all are already.. yea.. u guys are just family.. and so??? do u ever treat me like a family? i dono.. back to top?