i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

suddenly i dont know what to do with my life anymore. i always wanted to go overseas to study my degree. i know still have 2 more yrs to go and i should not be even thinking about it.. but i cant help myself. but after today.. i dont know what i should do anymore..my mum told me.. if i can get into singapore's university to study nursing it will be better cuz she will be able to pay cpf.. but the thing is... that is not what i want..i know i cant be selfish to drain my parents money just to fufill my dream..and the thing is i am not even sure if i want to be a nurse..that is y i dont want to attand singapore uni.. cuz after that degree.. u are a nurse.. nothing but a nurse.. its something i cant accept.. since its not what i wanted initially.. i do admit that i like the medical field.. but i dont wanna be in the ward 24/7.. its not the life i want..i just dont see any meanig in a life like this.. although there are so many things i wish i could have done to erase the past.. but no matter how much i learn and enjoy my experience at the hospital. i just cant seem to visualise myself as a nurse.. working my ass off for some shit pay. i wanna earn lots of money.. and this cant get me anywhere.. its mentally draining.. after what my mum said.. i start to think to myself.. what for i study so hard to get into an oversea's uni? y dont i just anyhow study than go and sign bond than go n study sim.. wun that be better?? i just donno what to feel and think any more.. suddenly my future seems bleak after what she said.. i hope someone can just tell me what i should do.. might as well just plan my life for me while u're at it..

2 yrs seems like ages.. but with blink of an eye.. its gonna be over.. back to top?

hmm.. it has been so long i noe.. hahaha.. well.. during these 2 mths alot of things had happened.. exams finished not long ago.. i really hope this time round it wun be as bad.. than attachment has start.. omg.. seriously attachement is sooooooooo annoying..



firstly, the stupid pca think he is sooooo smart.. command us to do this n that.. pls.. u are just a pca.. pls noe where u stand k.. thanks.. n this other trainie pca... omg.. i realli just wanna strangle him.. pls for the last freaking time my name is not may.. pls get tt fact straight.. always soo lazy.. don even wanna do anything and when i tell him dont lazy.. he say i will fail if i don do..wah i so scared ah.. hahah.. stupid la.. and cuz gt this pt... he quite poor thing.. his balls are lk freaking huge.. and his sausage is lk a tree on a hill.. u get wad i mean.. yea.. than tt trainie pca go n point to the "tree" and said, "what's that?? mushroom ah!!" seriously lor.. keep ur comments to urself.. people one may be mushroom but i bet urs a an ant in the mountain.. get it?? means u don even have any balls to start with.. so dont comment on other ppl's body part..



attachment is tough la.. esp when tt pt keeps calling u to straighten his pants, straighten his blanket, comb his hair, put powder, tie the curtains, off the lights, etc.. u get the drift.. apart from that my other pts are all right.. the youngest one is only 22 this yr.. and gt one pt is dil.. the sad thing is that he doesnt know that he will die soon.. and dont even know that he has cancer.. thats the sad part..



apart from exams and attachments.. the happy things that happened is that i kept in touch with my churchillians.. like jane, christine, jimmy, eli, seil, kazuki and some others.. i was sooooo happy when seil and kazuki sent me their photos.. and that this time when i go japan i will be able to meet rina and kazuki.. and hopefully ken.. i donno if the feeling is real.. i do miss ken alot.. but... im just tinking too much i guess..



now i guess.. im just going to focus on what is infront of me and forget about everything else.. as for r/s probs.. i guess im still waiting for my prince to drop down from the sky .. haha.. hope the next guy i ever date is like him.. though i have no idea what he is like.. but i do hope its like him.. back to top?