i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

today's post is just going to be thoughts that just come out of my brain.. i really need to straighten out my thoughts and what exactly i want. aniways applied for sgh already and im still waiting for their call for an interview.. also a/w ntu's reply.. a/w this a/w that.. when can i stop waiting for smthing.. i just dont like the feeling of waiting, the feeling of uncertainty and what you can or cannot do while waiting.. its just irritating..

yst had an argument wit someone.. i was really affected i guess.. i really cant take it animore.. its just im really tired.. im really tired of relationships.. really tired of feelings.. really tired of having to give n take and really tired of just being in a rs.. its just too mentally draining.. the rollercoaster ride its just unbearable..

feelings feelings feelings.. cant i just stop tinking and stop everything that is going inside my brain and heart? i hate this feeling.. what exactly is this?? is this happening cuz i have no one in my life and he happens to be there? or is this real feelings.. or just a plain crush.. i really dont know.. i dont wanna know.. i feel like just running away from my emotions.. my emotions are really going to be the one that kills me in the end..

age.. is age really important? i dont know.. is what im saying all just plain excuses of not wanting to be 2gether or what am i doing? someone told me "whether the shoes are too big or too small you gotta try it yourself, just be sure not to injuried your foot." does that mean i really gotta try on this shoes to see if im his cinderella?? i really dont want to start smthing which is not going to have an ending.. will it have an ending?? i dont know.. maybe im too obsessed with how people may see me.. what ppl will say behind me.. what ppl tink of me.. maybe being wit someone older can really give me that sense of security that i really need.. maybe not.. it not exactly the easiest decision to make.. and what if i start work or go to uni and i find someone else who is more suitable.. then im being unfair to him cuz it will look like im just using him to tide over the mths.. i donno.. im not sure of whats right n whats wrong animore.. i jsut wanna stop tinking about everything..

just someone pause my brain at this moment.. i cant take this animore.. someone pls save me.. back to top?