i'm just a simple girl living in this not so simple world. Nothing much to say about me except i love my life, every single day of it. `Life's like a rollercoaster :) *pictures derived from deviantart and sayingimages

dec 24: xmas eve

always thought xmas eve was suppose to be a happy day.. but unfortunately its not for me.. not this year at least.. this is the xmas eve that i wanna forget and just get it over with.. today is just not my freaking day.. woke up this morning then slack slack then went out to eat.. went near mixc to eat.. but stupid me forgot it was lunch hour.. so in the end walked around the shopping mall and bought cup noodles and potato chips.. so around 12.50 i decided to go to this cafe and have my luncheon meat gong zai mien.. like usual i cant read the stupid menu cuz i donno chinese.. so i just told her i want wu tsan rou gong zai mien and one ice lemon tea with honey ( that day i went another place and it was called smting like dong leng meng cha jia mi ) so i ordered that.. suddenly the lady put a cup of greenish thing in front of me.. and it was WHEATGRASS WITH LEMON.. wtf.. so i told her i wanted lemon tea.. luckily got another man drinking the same so i just point to it.. when the noodle came it was such a disappointment.. its just a packet of maggie mee... tt cost 18rmb ( approx 3 plus sgd ) and how i noe it was maggie mee is cuz they gif u the msg seasoning packet with the seasemi oil ( spelling suxs ) packet.. so after that i just went home..

after went home totally just stone in the room until now.. the tv just wun work.. n its still cold despite offing the aircon n i tink i going to be sick.. i just watch drama on my laptop for the whole day.. lucky my lappy din die on me.. if not i will seriously go mad.. realli literally seriously mad.. then around 7 plus mama called and say she going to hosp to extract teeth cuz pain.. so im suppose to stay home and order delivery.. 1 store i called is busy so i tried the next store called tak kee.. tt day my mama ordered the oily and tasteless mee from there.. so i tried to order this donno wad shan donno wad niu si donno wad shit la.. some shreeded beef thingy.. which i had trouble pronouncing.. n it din help when the person on the other line sounded so fed up.. so in the end manage to get the food but they donno where is the address.. how can u not noe when u deliver it few days ago.. wth.. she asked me to hold after tt she just hang up on me.. there goes my dinner as well.. next to store 3.. called xin fu lai..tt day afternoon just order mapo toufu from them.. now they tell me they donno either.. then the gal on the other line said this.. if u dont tell me where u stay.. i cant deliver it to u.. i mean like.. i tell her le ah.. she say this place don exist.. how can it don exist when u delivered it few days ago.. seriously... after the 3rd store i gt fed up and decided to just settle for cup noodle.. 1st time soo freaking fustrated until wanna break down..

just donno wads wrong wit me today.. seriously.. i just don feel like coming back to china.. i don wanna come back.. i noe mama works here very hard but i don wanna come back.. no one just understand me at all.. no matter wad its me who have to do it.. i don see my bro having to bear ani of these responsibility.. is it cuz im a girl and im suppose to do these stuff.. if that is so.. i rather be born a boy.. honestly i just wanna leave.. just pack my bag and leave the family.. i dont see any point in staying in a house when ur view are not heard and ur dreams are always being crushed like nobody's business..

just feeling freaking moody today.. feeling alot of funny things and i just donno how to explain and donno where to start.. just wanna escape from reality.. back to top?